I wanted to do a video, showing you all the features of Cinnamon & Chai but I am not ready for that yet, still too soon for me to chatter away. What I did do though was get carried away myself with the amazing Cinnamon UV and how easy it is to create something unique for yourself because of the Asymmetry options available for bakes on mesh layers (all Cinnamon layers have to be made using the tattoo system layer).
What is not well known is that every nail set I make is kept as layers, so something like tartan is usually around 50 layers of lines and so on just to create that one nail, I am a bit mental that way, but because I do all my nails by from scratch ( have used the occasional brush but I usually edit it so much it looks nothing like the original) that gives me the chance to run back and pull from things I have made in the past, such as using this flower to create a tattoo. Then creating chain links as a brush and so on, it was fun, and what is most exciting is not only the Asymmetry option as in no more mirroring of the arms, hands or feet, but also the seamless waist/back. The Cinnamon UV does not join until under the bottom, tops of thighs, so you have all of that clean space to work with. You can see on the Cinnamon & Chai website some of the tutorials that Siddean has created for Skin makers, clothing and tattoo makers to convert their existing work to Cinnamon & Chai, but also the UV and how you can just create for Cinnamon to make use of the non mirroring awesomeness.
As you can see in this picture, I have a waist tattoo and hip, then two different arm tattoos, no mirroring, again not a tattoo creator or artist I just wanted to see what I could do with the available options, and it was really easy and fun.
Here you see the waist has no seam, so you do not have to try and work out how much bigger or smaller the upper and lower parts have to be to create something with this much coverage, to me this will be a creators dream come true. I took my flower and just made it bigger and smaller and moved them around and coloured one in and voila (yay for keeping such good layers of everything).
At this point I am just doing stuff because I could, so I made the back spine tattoo, again no mid section seam to deal with, and the arms you can see are different. So much fun and the amount of effort that tattoo creators in SL put into their work, to finally have a great UV to really explore and create with, is going to be so exciting for many.
Showing off my animated feet by having one in pointe and one in kitten pose, but no additional mesh to do it, because the Cinnamon & Chai feet are animated, not individual feet. With that it means that you can create footwear or accessories that will move with the feet, not have to be made for each height. I also like that it would mean we can do some amazing things with Asymmetry there too, you just have to think it up.
This great bikini is one of the Cinnamon & Chai bikinis available in the Cinnamon & Chai store, and comes in beautiful colours with beads on the side.
VR Studio 4.2 and HUD and Library for location shoots
I always like to try and push the boundaries of what I am working with. Cinnamon & Chai is no exception, I am loving this body so much, wearing Cinnamon is kind of like a big HA to the SL UV Gods. Chai still has the SL UV for all but the feet, but even that is a joy to play with.
Speaking of feet, now as mentioned previously the feet are animated to change heights, so the thought process is that Slink shoes and other shoes will not work, that is not entirely true. It is going to depend on your ingenuity and inventory, or your ability to shop and demo like a demon. What is fun is that I am wearing these Vale Koer runners made for the Slink flat foot, and because they fit over the Cinnamon & Chai feet perfectly I was able to wear them and then use the animation to pointe my right foot and the shoes moved with, where as with the Slink feet they would not have done that unless made for. With the fantastic customising options I was able to get them to match to the Cinnamon & Chai athletic set that I grabbed at the Cinnamon & Chai store. I also found that an older gacha item from Vale Koer fit around my arm well enough in a Slink Hourglass fit, so double wins for me.
I love this set it comes in many different colour combos, and this and the pink and black are my favourites but I only had the arm thing in blue. I was also able to custom match this fantastic belly piercing for the body by Punch, they came out with Cinnamon & Chai piercings so fast and this set I got in the full pack so I have all the metals all the gemstones options I can think of. It even comes in low, mid and high based on where they sit as piercings to the navel which I thought was so cool, I am wearing the mid.
As I said I am obsessed with the Cinnamon UV and for those that did not know yet, Siddean has made it available to other mesh body creators under a license to use, and that info is here and that is yet again another great thing Siddean has done for the SL community (that list grows and grows). That means that if you are planning a body in future you can use her UV and make sure that content going forward is available for as many products as possible, lightening the load for content creators.
I hit up Wasabi the other day and shopped so much I had to sit on the floor while I demo’d, all the gacha styles are now available to buy in whatever colour pack you love the most, I was so excited.
VR Studio 4.2 and HUD and Library for location shoots
Cinnamon & Chai has been a passion project of Siddean Munro for the past year or so, a new brand with new possibilities. Cinnamon & Chai is one mesh body type with two UV’s to choose from.
This system has a few exciting features but an amazing innovation that Siddean has brought to the grid (she is always coming up with new and exciting ways to change our ways of life) are Animated feet! Instead of having multiple feet types hiding and showing through scripting, these are one set of feet that are animated to change to the height needed, this not only helps the grid in a big way, but also means that creators can be as creative as they like, with the ability to create content that can move with the feet…such as toe-rings that will move to each height, nails that will move, shoes that can be various heights for more realistic looks, no more having to build runners that are on tip toe just build them flat and the animation takes care of the rest. I do so love that Siddean is often the one with the firsts, as she always provides so much information on how best to use things.
Cinnamon as shown in my pictures has the brand new unique UV that allows for asymmetry without any scripting tricks or appliers, which is more exciting news for content creators, especially when it comes to tattoos, scars, brandings, wounds, birthmarks, freckles and so on, as you will no longer have mirrored arms, feet or hands. I wanted to show that, so I took one of my nails textures (hand painted by me) from my Aussie collection (Free on Marketplace) and faded it out and erased around the edges and brought it in world added to a tattoo layer and BAM! a left arm only tattoo. I wanted to be more creative with the other hand but I would have been at it all day instead of getting to the point, and the Cinnamon & Chai launch is in less than 2 hours from now 7pm SLT 16th Nov.
So as mentioned I am wearing Cinnamon and as you can see even though it is a unique UV I am skinned, and that is because Siddean has included 19 skins with the release in not only the Cinnamon version but also the Chai. Chai is a hybrid, in the sense that she is SL UV all the way down until the feet, and the feet are the unique UV giving us two feet uvs and also no more horrible ankle stretch. For those wanting to use their own bakes on mesh skins (the bodies are bakes on mesh only) you would use your skin and a blender (also provided in the HUD) to cover the feet and tint to match your own skin, it comes in 19 tones, so you should be able to get very close. In both versions they also include a neck blenders for various heads and the Evox heads have their own all included.
I will go into more detail on the what each version of body Cinnamon and Chai do over the next few days, as there is a lot to take in, but you also have the most extensive website to check out yourself at Become Cinnamon. Not only are there lots of details for customers, but also an amazing amount of tutorials and help in regards to content creation. The kits went out a few weeks ago, and anyone that previously had a Slink kit has been sent an updated Slink and a New Cinnamon & Chai kit, and the ease of use to convert is amazing. I took one of my bustiers in system layer and converted it without doing anything other than following the steps and clicking a bake button in Blender (FREE). I will try and show you me doing that step by step, and skins conversion is amazingly easy as well, no recreating skins or any such thing, just load and click.
Back to the Cinnamon and Unique UVs this means that all system layers need to be unique, not just skins, but any body makeup scars, etc, as well as alphas, some are provided, and the way the kit is the ones provided should definitely be enough. For Chai you would use your regular SL UV ones.
I am planning on being Cinnamon for most of my looks, if a system layer is old and I have to wear it, then I have the option of Chai, the bodies are identical in mesh terms, so whatever works in the moment is an easy grab. The HUDs are specific to each version, and they are individually packed, so no chance of messing up.
I cannot wait to see what people do with the freedom of the new UV, it is very exciting and no waist seam on Cinnamon at all, the connection of torso to limbs is under the bottom and what a bottom it is.
The body has more realistic fleshy parts, the upper thighs, the under arms, the breasts are wow, mine are set to 40 and believe me they get big. There may or may not be some work needed on your shape, mine was just bringing my hips in a little and my breasts down, other than that not much at all, but there are shapes included. The 19 skins come in Caucasian, Black and Asian tones, there are also freckles and pubic hair options included.
I hope to show you more soon, but for now I will leave you with some pictures of the great skin tones , and I hope you get the chance to check out Cinnamon & Chai for yourself. The store will be a separate build from the Slink store, but the same region. The bikini is by Freda, and she updated all her clothing to include Cinnamon & Chai in time, and I look forward to more of her items, this bikini and some great cargo pants I picked up from her store are just the start.
VR Studio 4.2 and HUD and Library for location shoots
This is not Second Life related at all, and while that is not usually something that I do, this is something that I needed to do for myself. Writing this out, posting it as a thing is something that I need to do because he means/meant everything to me, and I feel that I am going to honor that in putting this in text.
Not many know much about me at all, and that is fine, that is how I kept it, there are those that know some things and others that know most things, but he was the most precious thing to me for the past 5 years and the 40 that proceeded that. He was my Mums best friend for 45 years, so when I was 4 he became a part of my life, he thought of me when he went away and came back bearing gifts, he asked after me over many years as he and my Mum were close and I did not really see him for the decade prior to the past five years, but when he got sick and it was clear that he needed help I changed what my life was, and made him my everything, without even a pause in thought. I actually did not put any thought into it at all, it was just that was the way I decided it was going to be.
I moved in and changed his world, he was 90 and had some health issues but also dementia, which in itself is entertaining depending on the type. He had what I called goldfish dementia, he remembered me and his past, and everything about everything – he was highly intelligent, well travelled well read etc – but he would forget what he watched or ate five minutes prior. Things that are not really that important, but wow do I have a lot of photos of food on my tablet and phone, just so I could remind him of fun things like french toast with mushrooms and tomatoes or fettuccini with mussels and shallots…he inspired me to cook as I had in the past and not done for a very long time, I created many meals for him that will be very hard for me to even look at now.
For the past five years he was my everything, my reason to wake up, my reason to go to sleep early to be awake for him as many times through the night as needed, he was why I suddenly changed my Second life from 16 hours a day to barely 2, why I was no longer awake all night to be online for US and EU people (unless needed), but slept like an Australian for the first time in 12+ years.
We had the best days and sometimes the worst, dementia can be tricky, but thank goodness streaming TV came in just when I needed it most, because that awesome thing about not remembering something just done, meant that when I found something he enjoyed like documentaries or big movies and by big I mean Great Wall and King Kong big, he was happy to watch them over and over again… I now know far too much about things I would never have known about if not for him. Food shows also help, because if he watched for long enough, then getting him to eat was easier, dementia can confuse the issue on being hungry or thirsty and if your brain is telling you you aren’t there is no way to change that opinion without a lot of crying and begging.
He talked to me all day, told me he loved me and I replied the same at least a dozen or more times a day, he held my hand for hours while we watched movies and tv shows and documentaries, or just sat and talked for hours no need for anything else. We looked at books he had – hundreds of books on all sorts of subjects, sometimes I would read them, sometimes we would just go through them looking at pictures, to him they were all new and exciting, there is that upside to dementia again. We played trivia from my tablet, I did mention he was a genius! and when I was working on the computer he was genuinely interested, and would get so excited and proud of me when I would show him things I was working on. He was so happy about Hair Fair each year, and I told him and truly felt that if not for him sometimes it would not have been possible… I gave him all the credit as much as I could on most things, because I really felt that he was integral to everything being possible, because when it was that time of year he was very patient with me knowing that I needed a bit more time at the computer to set up and to help creators and the event itself. He knew that it was for Wigs for Kids and that was all that mattered to him.
As I said his dementia was goldfish, but it also meant that he would retain things over time, so eventually he would be able to tell tell me when I mentioned that my favourite scene in the Great Wall movie was coming up and he could say ‘ the arrow and the bowl’ and while I would get so happy and excited that he remembered, it also meant I would have to shelf the movie for a bit, as now he knows it, so watching it over and over is no longer possible. He learned how to turn off my alarm on my phone, I needed many alarms a day to keep things on track, medications and food etc. He learned how to tell Netflix he was still watching and that was all just over the top crazy joy for me…it seems silly to just beam for an hour because he remembered we did something the other day, but it was magical to me, because in those five years he did not get worse in that way, and that is an awesome thing. My biggest fear was not decline in physical movement or health, those things did happen, he needed me to do more for him over time, but my fears were in him not remembering me or Mum, not being able to remember his own life. Our pasts were intertwined for 45 years and he still held onto it all, and I was so grateful for that and probably selfish because he was mine and I needed him to love us still always.
Again not every day was a picnic, some days were harder, not wanting to eat, refusing to accept that things had to happen to exist etc, it was physically hard also, because he was 6ft and a Man and I am 5ft 10 and a girl lol, mind you that came in handy for him because he kept stealing my slippers, he liked mine better. Lifting someone multiple times a day, dressing them etc all those things are painful and he was worth every single ache and pain, as I said, he was my whole reason for existing for 5 years. I slept facing one way only, I only thought of things in terms of what he needed, liked or wanted. I came here only tolerating sweet chilli and now I put hot sauce on most food, because he was Chilli obsessed, and I would buy things for him to like and he would make me eat them too…those first years were tough lol. I had kitten collars around his walker so that one movement and I would be up, I had nanny cam video on him at any time I was not in the same room, so that I could see and hear him, I still have trouble putting both ear pieces of my headphones on because for five years making sure one ear was never unable to hear him is deep rooted.
They told me he would not last a few months when I took him from hospital five years ago, and I showed them they were wrong, and that made me so happy. I changed his life in ways too, he didn’t have a tv when I came here, was eating badly as the elderly tend to do when not being supervised, his home was collectors/hoarders paradise, not in the bad way just in the very neatly organised kept everything way. Which took a lot of work minimising, and making our home our castle with all the things that I bought so that life was easier, I would never have spent that money on myself, but for him I never hesitated if I thought it was going to make him happy. We had fun and laughed and talked and sometimes fought every day. He would wake me up to make sure I was asleep lol he would get confused and want his Mum and I had to tell him she had passed – hardest thing to do – I did everything I could to make his days from morning until night something he was happy to be experiencing and he loved me.
I thought I was ready with when he would leave me, I mean I understood I would be upset, I knew I would be heart broken and miss him, but nothing we talked about prepared me for this, he would tell me I would be free when it happened, and I would tell him I would be devastated, and devastated now seems mediocre a word to even describe what is going on. He used to say I had to go with him, that he would not survive in Paradise without me, and I would say if it was truly Paradise there would be a vending machine there and he could make unlimited copies of me all he wanted, but that if it was Paradise he would not actually need me. He disagreed.
He teased me all day, he would tell me he loved me but then follow it up sometimes with he did not know why, but he does lol cheeky scoundrel. He would say I love you, and I would say I love you too and he would say it was impossible to love him more than he loved me. Five years of that, every day was addictive, it was everything, I am lost without it, without him. I cry all day, I ugly cry, not just normal tears, but sob so loud I am scared I will freak out the neighbours, and then I get so upset that the neighbours are even something I have to check myself over. Everything makes me cry, mentioning him, talking in regards to him, having to deal with all the things in relation to his passing – and that is not over yet and it is horrible – I have had to move a lot of things around, and when I am pleased with making things fit the right way I end up sobbing because I feel guilty that something has pleased me and he is not here. I feel guilty that there is sun shining on the balcony and he is not able to sit out there and enjoy it. I feel guilty that for the first time in five years I have slept more than two hours at a time, and I feel guilty that I am not freaking out at every sound that should be waking me up because I was that way for five years. I feel guilty that I had to move a mirror because it let me see him beside me if I was turned towards the tv and now him not being there hurts so much that I cannot look that way, but that feels like canceling him out somehow. I feel guilty that now I can leave home to go to the store if I need to, because for five years I could not, unless Mum was here to be with him and so often I did not leave our home for months at a time, because if Mum was here and I didn’t need to go somewhere I just didn’t, because I hated leaving either of them.
I was lucky to be able to be with him as he died, I got to tell him every second ‘I love you’ and I got to thank him for giving me a home for five years, and I got to tell him that my life had purpose because of him and that I was so grateful to him for needing me, loving me, and making every day something wonderful.
It was 6 weeks ago yesterday, he actually got sick just as Hair Fair was ending, and had to go to hospital and because of lock downs I had to stay at home and not be able to see him for two weeks, two punishing weeks that I thought were going to kill me, then he came home after the hospital changed our whole world demanding we do things etc to allow him to come home and then two weeks later he was so sick and had to go back and he died that evening, but this time due to the circumstances they let me be with him, only me though, my Mum was not allowed, which was horrible. She loved him too, she was the whole reason I did all that I could for him because he loved her and I loved him for that. She has lost her best friend and I also cry over that, because now she has to deal with her own loss as well as her daughter falling apart because of that loss. My Mum made him part of my extended family, we do not name people with family names, but to me he was the closest thing to a Grandfather I will ever have, and I am so glad that I got to look after him for five years, that he got to be so loved by me for five years and I certainly hope that he is not too angry at me for falling apart, because he would be very cross at me losing my mind in grief, but that is an argument that I am more than willing to have, he just has to come back to me and he can bring it on.
I am not someone who has not had loss in the past, actually by the time I was 30 I had lost a dozen people, and one that I loved just as much as him, that I also looked after when he got sick, but this time, I am not coping, because for some reason I forgot that all his talk about moving on, and how I would be free then, was in the moment, I am now seeing decades a head of me without him every day, and that is overwhelming to me. I have no understanding of my purpose now, five years is a long time for someone else to be your reason for being…there are far too many hours in the day, by 3pm I am desperate for it to be over and its not. I cannot imagine how I am going to fill my days in the future, and while I may do more in SL eventually right now the idea of anything like that that is not just work is not even possible. Which is kind of the other reason I had to write this post, because I cannot imagine ever picking up on this blog and not having had some part of him in between. I need him to sit here in the middle of the past and the future whatever that is, if I do blog again or if I never do, he is here now, he exists outside of my heart. You would have loved him, he was hilarious and honestly every day was filled with me laughing so loud that my ugly crying now pales in comparison.
Everything is going to hurt forever, it may dissipate eventually, but I don’t actually want that to be anytime in the near future anyway, he deserves my pain my broken heart, my absolute devastation at him not being here holding my hand and telling me he is going to replace me with a robot one day. He deserves everything reminding me of him, no matter how silly it is that it triggers pain in my heart, all I really care about is knowing that deep down I know that he knew he was loved, wholeheartedly by my Mum and I for over 4 decades, and while the last five years was the most intense, he had a last years life that he was happy in every day, and had I not just stood up to that rude nurse and said I was moving in with him when they were trying to put him in a home, that would have not been the case. For him to have had that, for him to have been loved that much, that he changed lives, is something that I got to tell him often, and while he used to laugh it off, I know that he was proud to be the kind of Man that deserved that much love.
Because he was so funny, I often recorded him so that Mum could hear what had been going on in our home, I won’t share pictures obviously, but while this is probably only funny to me, I wanted this to also show what I am missing now everyday.
I hope you all have a great Bandana Day, this is the last day of Hair Fair 2021 and even though late, I did not want to not be in world with my Bandana on. This one was created by Alaska Metropolitan for Hair Fair 2021 and it is lovely, so I wanted to use her makeup and her bodysuit in my picture as well.